Tuesday, December 2, 2008

The Inspiration Of A Friend

I am starting this because of a friend. She started one and it has touched my heart. It feels good to share even if it doesn't sound good. I am a daddy's girl. I shouldn't be and I know that. Daddy's girl was born in 1981 and did not realizie the life she was entering. Daddy's girl has one older brother. Brother hates his sister growing up. Everyone hated me growing up. I was not planned but I was kept. My mom and dad hated each other, I don't know why they ever got married. Both families said it was cursed since my mom's grandmother married my dad's grandfather. They didn't listen. Brother was four years older then me, he was so mistreated. Daddy beat him for everything. Daddy and mommy fought all the time real bad. Everyone cried. Daddy and mommy left me and brother with daddy's parents all the time. Family told them not to but they did. Granny loved brother very much, like he was her own son. Mommy didn't like that. Papa loved daddy's girl n the wrong way but still they left them with the grandparents. Mommy and daddy still fighting all the time and daddy hurting brother. Nobody knew what was happening to me. One night mommy got me out of the bath and saw the teeth marks and bruising on my chest. They fought. I told who did it not knowing that it was a bad thing. They went to preacher man and he said if he does it again to go to the cops. The whole family knew this about grandfather but nobody would help me. Mommy took me and brother to Oklahoma with her family. They even knew and nobody helped. Daddy fought for us and won us, mommy gave up and went to 0ther men. Back to the grandparents house we go. Still happening but know better to say anything now. People get mad and in trouble. So grandfather still hurts me. He is heavy on top of me pressing into me, it hurts but I say nothing, grandmother alks in and sees and just walks away. Everyone knew but no one would help. Mommy say's daddy is in denial that he only admit to it once but still it continued and no one helped. Mommy would ask and I would say nothing. Oh the pain. I will continue my story and tell how I overcame it. It will take a long time but I will get there.